I don't ask for much
Only a few essentials
Things I cannot live without
I don't require everything
Just a handful of items
Despite the materialistic world
I just want solitude
Maybe a couple friends
Who I can trust
Who will never leave
Like you did.
I just want happiness
Genuine smiles for a change
A thin stomach
My horse underneath me
Nothing will go wrong again.
But it's too much to desire
My mind explains
As everything is ripped away
Everything indispensable to me
Blew away with my sanity.
A bright dazzling smile
Always sitting on her pretty face
Perfect brown hair
Always precisely straightened
Flows down her back
Best clothes
Cutest shoes
A+'s on every test
Everyone whispers how
Absolutely perfect she is
How they should be like her
She's convinced
They're tearing her to shreds
Skipping lunch
Skipping dinner
Shining eyes dim
The smile remains
Every night
Another notch in pale skin
Marks another day
She's been too strong
who said self harm
only comes in the shape of a knife
pressed cleanly against marked skin
drawing a perfect line
on a flawed body
who said anorexia
is a disease only for those dangerously thin
paper skin
over thick protruding bones
who said depression
only affects the dark girl
crying in the corner
clothes as black as her mind
self harm
can come from the mind
constantly bullying
picking out every fucking flaw
unable to be outrun
anorexia
could be the girl
pudgy but thinning
sunken eyes
measuring everything
eating food with eyes
instead of the mouth
depression
lives inside
the happy exterior
of a friendly smi
You don't know
How strong you must be
To want to kill yourself on the inside
Then put a fake smile on
Laughing and talking
Like nothing is wrong
You can't comprehend
How much you must hate yourself
To slice open your wrist
Every night
Praying to God
You won't wake up in the morning
You don't understand
How hard you must be on yourself
To starve for days on end
Drinking water
Flexing your stomach
Trying to keep it from grumbling
You don't fathom
How guilty you must feel
To binge on thousands of calories
Then pull them all out
Flushing them into the toilet
Only to do it again tomorrow
You will never realize
How mu
They put me on display
Like a python in a case
Majestically trapped behind failure
Refusing to put on a show
Still being watched
They poke and prod
To see if they can provoke a movement
All I give them
Is silence.
The hold me up
Like a lion in a zoo
Free but trapped
Keep running until the leash is snapped
People marvel in wonder
They poke and prod
To see if they can provoke my teeth
All I give them
Is silence.
They abuse me
Like an elephant in a circus
Stabbing with a hook
If I fail to bow to their wishes
Putting on a great show
Makeup to cover the wounds
They poke and prod
To see if they can provoke my
I don't ask for much
Only a few essentials
Things I cannot live without
I don't require everything
Just a handful of items
Despite the materialistic world
I just want solitude
Maybe a couple friends
Who I can trust
Who will never leave
Like you did.
I just want happiness
Genuine smiles for a change
A thin stomach
My horse underneath me
Nothing will go wrong again.
But it's too much to desire
My mind explains
As everything is ripped away
Everything indispensable to me
Blew away with my sanity.
A bright dazzling smile
Always sitting on her pretty face
Perfect brown hair
Always precisely straightened
Flows down her back
Best clothes
Cutest shoes
A+'s on every test
Everyone whispers how
Absolutely perfect she is
How they should be like her
She's convinced
They're tearing her to shreds
Skipping lunch
Skipping dinner
Shining eyes dim
The smile remains
Every night
Another notch in pale skin
Marks another day
She's been too strong
who said self harm
only comes in the shape of a knife
pressed cleanly against marked skin
drawing a perfect line
on a flawed body
who said anorexia
is a disease only for those dangerously thin
paper skin
over thick protruding bones
who said depression
only affects the dark girl
crying in the corner
clothes as black as her mind
self harm
can come from the mind
constantly bullying
picking out every fucking flaw
unable to be outrun
anorexia
could be the girl
pudgy but thinning
sunken eyes
measuring everything
eating food with eyes
instead of the mouth
depression
lives inside
the happy exterior
of a friendly smi
You don't know
How strong you must be
To want to kill yourself on the inside
Then put a fake smile on
Laughing and talking
Like nothing is wrong
You can't comprehend
How much you must hate yourself
To slice open your wrist
Every night
Praying to God
You won't wake up in the morning
You don't understand
How hard you must be on yourself
To starve for days on end
Drinking water
Flexing your stomach
Trying to keep it from grumbling
You don't fathom
How guilty you must feel
To binge on thousands of calories
Then pull them all out
Flushing them into the toilet
Only to do it again tomorrow
You will never realize
How mu
They put me on display
Like a python in a case
Majestically trapped behind failure
Refusing to put on a show
Still being watched
They poke and prod
To see if they can provoke a movement
All I give them
Is silence.
The hold me up
Like a lion in a zoo
Free but trapped
Keep running until the leash is snapped
People marvel in wonder
They poke and prod
To see if they can provoke my teeth
All I give them
Is silence.
They abuse me
Like an elephant in a circus
Stabbing with a hook
If I fail to bow to their wishes
Putting on a great show
Makeup to cover the wounds
They poke and prod
To see if they can provoke my